God is God & I am not

Well this past weekend I was in St. Louis with Faith's college group and made some amazing new friends. When I got up this morning my mom told me that my dog was having trouble walking. I went outside and he wasn't eating or drinking and his breathing was really off, so I picked him up and carried him inside. I ended up staying home from church to take care of him. As the day went on, he seemed to be getting better. I spent most of the day cuddling with him and trying to get him to drink. My friend Jeff came over to rehearse a song with me that we were going to sing tonight - after he left Jody started to cough and I went and sat next to him and started talking to him and petting him, telling him it was gonna be okay. Then he went stiff and I freaked out. I've never experienced losing a pet or seeing life leave 'someone' who was close to me and it was probably the worst feeling in the world. And 30 minutes later, I had to go to church and sing about praising God while trying not to cry - not easy.