Putting What You Know In Your Head . . . Into Your Heart.

Wow. Well, sometimes you can't beat around the bush: I haven't been this down in awhile. It's been one of those weekends where everything you do seems to be in vain. There is no real need to go into extravagant details, but I feel alone. My two best friends are in Florida and along with a few other things eating away at me... I am emotionally and physically drained. God is my comfort and my strength, but sometimes He's hard to find and difficult to rely on. I can't physically feel His hugs like I feel my mom's hugs. I can't hear His voice like I hear my friend's voice. I can't see His face like I see everything else. Yet even though I can't see Him, touch Him or hear Him, I know He is there. Lately, I've been trying to put what I know in my head, into my heart. It's hard to put something new into an old heart that is heavy and tired. Teaching an old heart a new (yet somehow familiar) beat is difficult but not impossible. I don't feel the way I know I should and that's driving me crazy. In these circumstances it can be very difficult to find joy.

I find myself staring at the wall with no real thoughts going through my mind - just resting and seeking God's comfort. I'm hoping and praying that this week will be different, but if it's not, that I won't be discouraged and that I will lean on God instead of the people and things of this world.

I came up with a little quote and I'm trying to keep it running through my head:
"God's hands can hold your worries better than yours... So let Him."